
I am Manci, Asian & a kid at heart :'>
20 y/o fish eyed abdominal breather!
who just wants to drown the world out .
I’ve been sitting on pins and needles. And lately I think I’ve gotten sort of a hold of myself. Good news is I’m not expelled from the University, bad news is my redemption is a lot harder than what I thought I would have to go through.
I miss you . I know I said I’m moving on and I am but I just miss you. Though I lack words you know exactly what’s running in my head. The horrors of getting expelled got me gagged up for the last month of the semester and I know it got the best of me. I know I acted up like an asshole but would you not if you were in my shoes?
I can’t sleep straight and my pills are not at its optimum effect or maybe my system is under the weather. This is going to be a long May for me.
I wish I could wolf hug you now. I will man up and deliver my pinky promise. I’ve been trying to write but my head is all too occupied with the future. You know I’d rather have it bleak than this. It scares me and I do not want to lose track of sanity. I’m only bold enough when I know you’re there. And it seems either I crumble or sulk in cowardice when you’re not.
Seven years with you didn’t make me a weaker person. I’m just scared cos I can’t risk chances. Chances are all I got left. I hope not for the later for I have and will will to deliver my pinky promise. I apologise for any incoherency if so. This has just has to get off my chest.

Submitted by christinewang
oh boy i wish i had something to light. Keep Calm. Keep praying. Maintain composure.
(Source: ostentation-and-novocaine)